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at times life just turned on us…… betraying us…. killing off our heart, inche by inche…bits by bits…

13th of july 2005 and 15th of may 2005….. dates that would be the pinnacle of my grief and the lowest point in my life so far…. both my beloved grandfather passed away (may god bless them) ……

i’m never good at funeral….. at mourning death…. at celebrating the journey of love ones to a new level of existance…. for me it’s like killing off a part of you and cast it away to a place where no joy would ever squint on them ever again…..

it’s times like this that really make me think and consider everything in life all over again…. take things for granted and mr. regret will just be round the bend to pounch on u and take sum more out of u … guilt, and the loves that can never be reconcil…..

ya, deaths does does such things to us…. but never in my faintest idea would i considered losing them at one glance….. there would never be another apak for me and there would never be another tok ayah for me……

and the saddest part of the whole lot, is to see my grandmas…. as strong as they tried to be, i could never imagine the anguish of losing the one that u truly love… the one who had shared a lifetime with them….. who’s more then just a husband to them, more than just soulmates…more than just another character in thier journal……. it’s a part of them that make them whole…complete……

love….death…..guilt…regret…anguish…. that’s that

al-fatihah and may god bless the blessed soul of my grandfathers

in memories of:

mohamad @ muhammad ismail

ahmad ali

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